PISS OFF!!!

I wanna know where you are not because I'm suspecting you or whatever you thought so!
I want you to let me know before you going somewhere with anyone or alone just because I will have clue where can I look for you or who can I contact when I can't reach you or find you!
If I disappear myself for more than one day, what will you do?
You sure can't do anything because you don't have a clue where am I and who I'm with!
I hope you understand...
If you wanna think at other ways round.
Fine, so be it.

Recently

Time passes real fast, in  a blink of eyes it's now entering the sixth week of this semester.
It makes me felt like I have done nothing but fooling around again.
However, this semester I really did put effort in.
My repeated subject, Principles of Microeconomics.
I get a marks of 40/50 in the mid-term test one, however I didn't achieved my target. "sad"
And this coming Saturday is the Mid-term test two,
Wishing that I can do well in this time.
Things really happened a lot recently,
There are people who left us although I do not know them. But they're a mutual friends.
To those who suffer the losses, be strong!
They are still with us but they only in another form that we can't see nor feel.
They will be together with us in our memory.
So, whenever you think bout them, try recall back your memories of the time you guys been together.
It's a good way to relieve yourself.
Okay, time's up, ^^
Take good care of everyone of yourself. 

It's been long my friends.

 It's been quite some time since my last updated.
Now it's time for me to make clear of what have I did in between the time I disappeared myself.
First of all, of course, I'm having my semester break.
Well, I spend quite a lot of time with my ex-secondary schoolmates which appear to be my buddies.
I have a great time with them.
All the basketball things, Dota, and many more.
I enjoyed the time.
Of course, need not to forgot bout my pretty girlfriend, I think we are still in quite a hot temperature.
At least I think so. Hahahaha!!!
And in the mean while, I have my worst day too during this break.
Car accident, basketball injury and the main thing is, my result.
Damn it!
I have failed my parents once again.
I never thought it will turn out this way,
When I heard of my result,
What was running in my mind is, how should I face them.
Guilty, sadness, pity.
I no longer of myself.
Get it together you piece of shit (well this is what I'm saying to myself).
Harder time could be pass as long as you will not give up.


Lastly,
RISE AND RISE AGAIN,
UNTIL LAMBS BECOME LIONS.

14092010

Oh gosh,

I'm bet that everyone is trying their best since our final examination started yesterday.

For me today is the first blood,

I'm wonder did I do well but for sure I had tried my best to answer everything.

Who knows whether it is correct or not~

Well, it's gonna continue again.
Tomorrow is the Quantitative Paper I.

Well, it is the only subject for me in this semester.

Now I'm really wondering whether did I took the wrong choice. = =

Well, life will carry one!

You have to take the good with the bad, smile with the sad, love what you’ve got, remember what you had, learn from your mistakes, but never regret, people change, things go wrong, but remember life goes on!

Updated~~~02092010

It has been quite awhile since the last time i update my blog.
now, I suppose, everyone is busy of their fina examination as well as I am.
since I studied in degree right now,
everything is different.
As I know, it is really tiring some more there's not the only thing we have to worry about.
*sigh*
I'm worried bout it even though I have give out the best I got.
mid-term test nt very bad but it's not very good as well.
well, think that there is only one way I can do,
put more effort.
read a post from my friend just now,
he stated Jack Neo once said'' 做人就要敢敢来,敢敢拼才有前途.''
Well, I think of it.
if I really did the way I want, things will really freak out.
So, better focus on what I'm going to face.
GOOD LUCK YA EVERYONE! 

Wonder~

I'm wonder,
What will a person do if your partner is nt finding you.
You are waitting he/she to send you a message or a call for you.
However, after some time and there is still no new income message in your inbox and there is no any missed calls in your phone.
What will you do?
keep waiting or switch off the phone or send he/her a message or give he/she a call?
What will you do if you found out that she is busy chatting with friends or busy something else real serious.
For me, if I found out that my partner is buysing of her works; I will be fine with that.
However, if it is the 1st option, I think I will probably just ignore or switch off the phone.
Even though I knew that by doing this will cause something bad happens.
What will you do if it was you?
Sometime I will hope that she will look for me whenever she is free to.
However, this is not the 1st time.
Enough of that, I'mma tired of it as well.

31072010~02082010

Penang trip. ^^
Fun and happy.
Depart from Kampar at Saturday evening and stay a night over Chez's place.
There are total of 7 of us in this trip.
Mega sale period....went for shooping. ^^
Bought myself a belt and a polo-T.
haha....xD
Considered good. ^^
Have some nice foods during this trip.
haha....just simply update.
Very tired d.

Well Well Well

Huh.
It's Sunday again!
Even though there is no need to study or go for class on this day,
but it still quite boring if you just staying in hostel!
There is no place to go if you don't have a vehicle, I mean car.
Today German vs Uruguay, at 0230.
German won! I'm glad.
However, German can't enter to the final.
Later, 0230a.m. of tomorrow 12/07/10.
The final match of FIFA world cup!
The last match!
Netherland vs Espanyol!
I'm hoping Netherland will win this match!
All right, off to study.
Three test on the same day. *sigh*

09072010

Everyone is so totally stress up as the mid-term test are approaching,
some more the assignment due date is so close than ever you can imagine!
What the fuck!
This was so fuck-up!
Everything have to be settle at the same time,
Is it that the school thought we are machine or something else?!
We need a break!
Tomorrow is micro-economic mid-term test,
Study study study~
Next week worse than this,
3 subjects at once.
Want to know what are those 3 subjects?
It's~---->> 1. Corporate and Business Law  2. Quantitaitive Technique I  3. Principles of Marketing!
What the hell!!!!
How are we gonna handle 3 subjects at once! =(
All mess up...
Besides of that,
Yesterday received a news,
Those whoever applied for the ptptn loan but not yet been approve have to re-apply again.
What the fuck!
Evetyone was so temper when they hear that!
I had apply it 3 weeks before.
But now have to re-apply it!
*sigh*
Gonna continue to study again...=(

05072010

First, I'm gonna tell what happened yesterday.
Yesterday, my family was here at Kampar to pay me a visit.
However, what make me happy is my girlfriend is following them to here visit me. 
I was so happy when I knew she could come along.
Around 1230 they had reach. Of course, once I went down to open the door the first one I was looking at is her!
I miss her very much. It is really excited to see her in front of me.
Then we went for lunch and go buy some of my stuffs.
*sigh*
Happy moment always passed very fast.
Around 1600, they're going back.
It is difficult when she have to leave.
*sigh*
Today, me and Chez accompanying Chu Hao back to his house which is located at Ayer Tawar to settle some of his stuffs.
It was fun! =)
Hahaz~~~That's all I want to say.

02072010

*Sigh*
Just starting to play back my favourite-Basketball.
Last time I played I had injured my foot!
What the ****!!!
Now, I had injured myself again, This time, it is not my leg nor my hand, it is my eye!
*Sigh*
Don't know which mother ****er shoot the ball and directly hit my eye when it didn't go in the basket.
As I know, that ball had way far from the basket!
The moment I get hit, there is only one thing in my mind,
Is my eye blinded? Is there any blood? Will I never see things again?
There was a moment I can't see a shit.
After my friends told me to close up my eye and get rest for awhile,
I am able to see again!
However, the vision is blur and I can feel the pain!
It was a moment the first time I'm that afraid.
Now, the pain is still there and it is hard to open my eye and see things clearly.
Oh ya, it was my left-eye which the ball hit.
Now the only thing I can do is rest.
I want go for basketball again,
No ball no life! =)
*Sigh*
Have to go for doctor again. Why I always get injure in sport.  =.=

Updated 25062010

Well, it is about time to update my blog.
first of all, my degree study life had enter to the forth week.
It's time to get busy with assignments and mid-term test again.
Stressfullness.
(Time is ticking and running, everything will move along the time itself.
nothing could remain the same forever.
look forward you may explore something you never know.)

My roommate, Way Yee, transfer group successfully and now he is under the same group with me.
this will really get a lot easier when you got works to do together.

Yumi arr Yumi, thx for drop by.
Sorry that couldn't reply you on time.
however, thx ya.

*Sigh*
Yesterday suddenly get mad on her.
felt guilty now.
trying to cherish her agian.
is it distance changed me?
I'm wondering/

10062010

Updated! Updated!

Actually, there are not much to say and I'm just refreshing my page.

Firstly, the second week in Degree study is going to end and third week is coming.

My timetable isn't considered the worst but 10 hours in campus and 7 hours of class.
It really taking my breath out of me.

However, I'm still not in the mood yet.

 Trying to mix up with the environment as the studies is turning difficult.

Have to get serious on this, no more playing after this week.

Anywway, next week is going to attend to my silly girlfriend school's prom night.

However, it ain't cheap!

It is like almost RM130 for 2 persons.

Really like sucking my blood out.

No choice, that silly girl said that I must bring her to this kind of event once before it.
Actually I'm glad that she is happy.

I'm hoping that my RM100++ will be worth for it.
if not, I'mma like "what the hell!!!"

P/S: I will be home on next Wednesday. ^^

Time to update it. ^^

Okay, as you all know, I have already finished my examination and now is waiting the last subject result to e release.

Hoping that I can proceed to degree cause many friends are with me and we are hoping to proceed to it together.

Lets pray.

This is the second week of my semester break i think,

There are only two weeks left or less than that for me to enjoy my break.

Well, during this break I didn't go on any trip instead of staying in house and be driver of my beloved girlfriend and two little sister.

However, today, 16th of May 2010, I have a great day with my girlfriend. (This day is really fun cause there is no one else but only me and her.)

We went for movie of course, after having lunch at her house.

The movie we had watched today, "A Nightmare on the Elm Street".

A story of Freddy Kreuger!

Even though there are many movies about him and Jason,

But I still love it! It is quite terrify and bloody (not as much as "SAW")

After the movie is finish,

Guess what, I asked her whether want to watch another movie which is "Fury Vengeance".

This movie is great, funny and cheerful. 

Suitable to watch after having a movie which are able to make you having a heart attack.

My little silly laugh as happy as she are.

During that moment, I believe she is the most happiest people in the world. (She is cute isn't she?)

                                                                           *laughing*

This is my little girl, the girl I always care and worry about. =)

I know my temper is bad sometime, however, she is still by my side no matter what had happened.

I am grateful with her present in my life.

All I want to tell her is, I LOVE HER!!!!

Rush rush rush~

Things are getting quiet.
Everyone's home and I am still facing my additional subjects' examination.

*sigh*

Wish to go home earlier.
I want proceed to degree and I can!
I'm Edward!
Will never give up!


(Just to release my stress.)

Second day of examination.

I'm officially announce that my examination subject FBAM1013 Introduction to Cost Accounting is holding now its funeral with the only attender which is me in my hostel.

Its now rest in peace.

I'm totally lost confident on myself.
I have no idea that how am I suppose to proceed to my degree if I can't get gpa or cgpa over 2.0.
*Sigh*


Thought that I can proceed to degree study along with all my friend.




*Sigh*
Can't blame anyone,
How much effort that you had put in and that's how much of award that you will receive. =(


Okay, time to start doing my revision on mathematics for business and social science and management studies.
Hoping to score  a good result on these 2 subjects.
God bless me.

Punching bag, very sorry lorh!

Final is approaching,
Stress is increasing,
I want you to listen to me or spend more time with me,
But I know that you got things to busy,
I do not dare to ask you to stop your works and accompany me.
I even told you to concentrate and done your works firstly.

What i get?
Nothing but became an punching bag.
Not that I don't want to be your punching bag,
But sometime, even I ask an question and you will sounds like getting frustrated.
Very sorry,
Next time I will not ask bout anything if you think that question is stupid,
Tell me,
IF YOU DON'T LIKE IT!!!


Take good care,
bye.

Update for recently. ^^

Final examination in coming,
1 week later and I'm gonna face it.
Preparing for it.
Mid-term not doing well,
Hope I can do better in my final examination.
Feeling stress,

     *Sigh*

Afraid that I can't do well in the final,

Have to have faith in myself.

Cheer up!

I can do it!

I will proceed to degree with all my friends!

I will not lost!

 =)

Everyone is busying with their exam as well,

Good luck to those who are going to have their exam.

As well as good luck to myself. ^^

Lastly some words to my silly girl,

You are really silly,

Be sure to take good care of yourself when I'm not around. k?

Dun let yourself get sickness.

You are always making me worry,

but that is what special of you. ^^

I love you.

Time to update.....

Oh well,
Just finished all the mid-term test as well as the assignments.
It's been tiring since I'm taking 4 subjects in this short semester.
It makes me feel that time is not enough to use, 

But I'm still have to make it in order to take the step toward degree together with all my friends.

*Sigh*

I understand that,

When people grown,

There will always something that we will have to take responsibility on it.

Same as how you treat your partner of life.

What I wan to say is, 

When you love someone, don't hurt them.

talking bout myself,

Recently not much chatting with her again.

Very miss her and my family.

=(

Moody...

This post is specially for my beloved girlfriend, Mei Wei.


I know these days are quite hard for you,
you have to handle three situation in the same time.
First thing first, Grandpa went into hospital, I know it makes you very worry and upset.
 Second, have to deal with schools' staff while taking care the family and grandpa.
Third, have to face your boyfriend which is always make you frustrated or angry and that's me.
(I don't know whether there is other guy but I'm still believe in you.)


I know you are tired,
I want to take care of your burdens too.
I'm sorry because I can't always stay by your side and solve all the problem for you/


Grandpa will be better I believe,
This is all I can said...
I know there is no way to convince you that grandpa will really get better,
But all I could do is only telling you this. ( Felt that I very useless.)


I know it's been making you no space to breath as you are the eldest in the family,
All I could do is only watch,
I don't have the power to relieve your burden now,
But I promise, in the very future, I will take down all the burdens of you and left them on my shoulder.
Even the sky fall, I will still stand right in front of you, leaving you unharmed.


However, I think the most pressure is likely come from me,
As my emotions and attitudes are always uncertainty.
I know it will do no good,
But still, I can't remove these attitudes.
I'm sorry,
I may couldn't be the 100% perfect boyfriend of you.
But, I can give you my words that,




I WILL BE THE ONE WHO LOVE YOU THE MOST!!!!!

Treating...

Is it true that people are always like to hear praise words more than telling them the actual of his or her attitudes?

There is once a sentence,'Treating others well doesn't mean they will treat you the same way.'
It's sounds true,
However, i believe treating others with no regrets or from the very deep of heart,
Which is truly  as a friend, then it will be better.


No matter what happens,
Friends will always be the one you looking for help or advise when your parents are not around you.
You can't always depend on your family,
When you grew up,
You will have you own responsible of taking good care of yourself.
Your parents will not always be there for you,
Sometime it is all on your own.


Friends will be the one who can help you,
I can say that i treat every friends fairly with no regrets.
People who treat me good, i will treat them the same way,
people who treat me bad,
I will still take them as friends.
However,
If you across the bottom line,
there will be no mercy form me.


Friends,
can be many meaning in many ways.


Some take them as a tools,
Some take them as a really close friends,
Some even trust them with their life.


Reality is cruel,
People might not treat you as good as you treat them.
However,
If people telling you where is the bad of you,
Listen and think if you are really have those,
If you do,
change it and people will accept it.


Everyone will prefer to have a friend more than a enemy.


This is all what I wanna to say.

外表开心的人..

总有一些人，他们看上去整天都很开心，嘻嘻哈哈的，没有

烦恼，像个小孩，他们会说玩是我最大的乐趣，我很喜欢玩，我什么都会玩人多的时候他们脸上总挂着笑容，好多人都会羡慕他们，然而这其实是他们最悲哀的地方，他们不想让别人看到自己难过的一面，更没有能力一个人独处，因为当夜深人静的时候，他不知道一个人会发生什么事，坐在窗前冥想走过的点滴



没有人读的懂他们，想着想着貌似快乐的他们就会黯然流下一脸的悲伤，然后自己对自己说：其实也没什么，命运吧！所以他们就整天逼自己笑，以此来逃避那些常人所不能不承受的痛苦！



他们貌似很坚强，因为在别人看来，他们什么事都能微笑着去面对，但事实上他们长着世界上最脆弱的心灵，只是长期的伪装使得别人很难发现他们内心深处的创伤。 他们其实非常孤独，虽然看到他们时都是在跟一群人谈天说地，那是因为他们实在不能承受一个人时的折磨！



他们只想简简单单、快快乐乐的活着，期待并且相信每个人给的笑容都是真心的，希望身边的人都是真正的喜欢自己。即使别人小小的意见，也会另他们难过好久，他们真的真的很介意，介意自己不被人喜欢。因为，他们总是为别人想的很多，对别人总是比对自己好；把能对喜欢的人好当做幸福，喜欢别人比喜欢自己多。



他们总是那样，前一秒还伤心的流着泪，后一秒出现在朋友面前的时候，已经满脸溢着灿烂的笑容。有人说他们是向日葵，是的，他们在意的人就像是太阳，在面对太阳的时候永远是明艳的花瓣，而太阳照不到的背面，那悲伤藏得那么好，不愿被看见。



他们向往放纵自由的生活，却必须为了谁很努力的朝另外的一个方向活着，很累很累，却仍是心甘情愿。离自己的梦境越来越来远，不得不面对从未想过的争夺和复杂，恐慌、不知所措。只有面对最信赖的人时，才会卸下盔甲，委屈的流下眼泪。因为在他们心里，笑就是开心，哭就是难过，接近就是喜欢，远离就是讨厌。但其实不是，他们明白了，心好伤，眼泪就没忍住。哭过之后，笑笑得擦干眼泪，说，没关系，我可以做的很好的。



他们好像无所不能，好像总是不会有烦恼，好像什么问题都能轻而易举的解决，总是喜欢喜欢出现在流泪的人面前，笑嘻嘻的逗着笑。而面对自己的问题，他们却茫然无措，面对自己的悲伤，他们只会躲在人们看不见的角落里慢慢由伤口越裂越大。



他们的想法非常简单，说出来的就是心里所想的，肚子里不会拐七道八道的小弯，无心的话可能会引起别人的误解。所以，请别记恨他们，他们从不愿伤害谁，小小的错误就能让他们懊悔很久。



他们其实非常单纯，甚至你曾经给了他一个微笑他也会一辈子记得你的好，因此他们的世界观其实也很简单，他们很容易受蛊惑，请不要轻易的伤害他们的感情，因为一旦伤害了，那就将永远弥补不回来！如果你身边有这种人请你给予他（她）那怕是凤毛麟角的那点关怀，让他（她）知道这个世界没有抛弃他们。

Time

Time,
Is something everyone hopes it will always be enough.
However,
When people grew,
They will discover that time will always not enough for them.

Once you grew older,
there will always be something you will have to take responsible to.
You will have to do it no matter what happened or how you not willing to do it.

Time,
You will have to rearrange your schedule  or time.
If you plan it well,
You will have time for your family, friends and your girlfriend or boyfriend, your study.


However,
If you can't manage it well.
You will find out no matter how hard you try,
you can't make it.


Time,
I always hope you can have sometime for me.
Spend it with me.

Even if it's only 5 seconds.
I will feel that it's more than enough.

Recently~~~

Sorry for not updating my blog.
Recently I was unable to connect to the internet due to some problem of the network or someone's work.
Just have my 1stmathematic's quiz yesterday.
Not bad overall. (I think)

Nothing special happened recently.
Living the days as the same,
Went for class, have your meal and spend time with your friends.

Everyone is doing great I think.
Gonna decide whether wanna continue the rental contract with Danish House Company or not.
As I do not know where to move to.

Okay, just to update my blog.
Bye guys, take care.

Something I would like to say but I can't speak it out. So...I still can't say it out.

It's been so long,

Whenever I against it or disagree it and wanna tell her.

I can't say it and I don't know what to say.

I want to tell her what I'm thinking but I couldn't.

Honestly, there are something I don't want her to do.

But it always happen.

Even now I also don't know what the hell am I talking about.

Is this communication problem?

I don't want to make her upset or sad,

But I really dislike it.

I wanna know do she understand my worries,

I wanna tell her everything but I can't.

Felt very useless toward myself.

Wanna do something great but in return always get the result that out of my estimation.

I want her happy,

Maybe this is the reason I can't say it to her.

Or it's just I was afraid.

What the hell am I talking bout?

Have no idea!

Talking nonsense here...

Ignore it if you think this is an idiot post. (Even myself also think that this post is stupid.)

Am I stupid or idiot?

*SIGH*

Back to Kampar~~~ Begin of the last semester.

Long time did not update my blog,
Now I'm updating. ^^

As you know,
Tomorrow is the begin of the new short semester,
And now I'm back to Kampar again.
Leaving everything back there are very upset but I must work hard for this semester if I wanna go for degree.

There is nothing special happen,
But I had a great holidays with my girlfriend.
It is good to have her accompanying me,
Although she is not always free to share her time with me.
There are sweet and bitter between us,
But still, I hope our relationship will last forever.

Okay, It's time to stop as I have to keep my things and take a bath.
The weather is so HOT!!!