Moody...

This post is specially for my beloved girlfriend, Mei Wei.


I know these days are quite hard for you,
you have to handle three situation in the same time.
First thing first, Grandpa went into hospital, I know it makes you very worry and upset.
 Second, have to deal with schools' staff while taking care the family and grandpa.
Third, have to face your boyfriend which is always make you frustrated or angry and that's me.
(I don't know whether there is other guy but I'm still believe in you.)


I know you are tired,
I want to take care of your burdens too.
I'm sorry because I can't always stay by your side and solve all the problem for you/


Grandpa will be better I believe,
This is all I can said...
I know there is no way to convince you that grandpa will really get better,
But all I could do is only telling you this. ( Felt that I very useless.)


I know it's been making you no space to breath as you are the eldest in the family,
All I could do is only watch,
I don't have the power to relieve your burden now,
But I promise, in the very future, I will take down all the burdens of you and left them on my shoulder.
Even the sky fall, I will still stand right in front of you, leaving you unharmed.


However, I think the most pressure is likely come from me,
As my emotions and attitudes are always uncertainty.
I know it will do no good,
But still, I can't remove these attitudes.
I'm sorry,
I may couldn't be the 100% perfect boyfriend of you.
But, I can give you my words that,




I WILL BE THE ONE WHO LOVE YOU THE MOST!!!!!

Treating...

Is it true that people are always like to hear praise words more than telling them the actual of his or her attitudes?

There is once a sentence,'Treating others well doesn't mean they will treat you the same way.'
It's sounds true,
However, i believe treating others with no regrets or from the very deep of heart,
Which is truly  as a friend, then it will be better.


No matter what happens,
Friends will always be the one you looking for help or advise when your parents are not around you.
You can't always depend on your family,
When you grew up,
You will have you own responsible of taking good care of yourself.
Your parents will not always be there for you,
Sometime it is all on your own.


Friends will be the one who can help you,
I can say that i treat every friends fairly with no regrets.
People who treat me good, i will treat them the same way,
people who treat me bad,
I will still take them as friends.
However,
If you across the bottom line,
there will be no mercy form me.


Friends,
can be many meaning in many ways.


Some take them as a tools,
Some take them as a really close friends,
Some even trust them with their life.


Reality is cruel,
People might not treat you as good as you treat them.
However,
If people telling you where is the bad of you,
Listen and think if you are really have those,
If you do,
change it and people will accept it.


Everyone will prefer to have a friend more than a enemy.


This is all what I wanna to say.

外表开心的人..

总有一些人，他们看上去整天都很开心，嘻嘻哈哈的，没有

烦恼，像个小孩，他们会说玩是我最大的乐趣，我很喜欢玩，我什么都会玩人多的时候他们脸上总挂着笑容，好多人都会羡慕他们，然而这其实是他们最悲哀的地方，他们不想让别人看到自己难过的一面，更没有能力一个人独处，因为当夜深人静的时候，他不知道一个人会发生什么事，坐在窗前冥想走过的点滴



没有人读的懂他们，想着想着貌似快乐的他们就会黯然流下一脸的悲伤，然后自己对自己说：其实也没什么，命运吧！所以他们就整天逼自己笑，以此来逃避那些常人所不能不承受的痛苦！



他们貌似很坚强，因为在别人看来，他们什么事都能微笑着去面对，但事实上他们长着世界上最脆弱的心灵，只是长期的伪装使得别人很难发现他们内心深处的创伤。 他们其实非常孤独，虽然看到他们时都是在跟一群人谈天说地，那是因为他们实在不能承受一个人时的折磨！



他们只想简简单单、快快乐乐的活着，期待并且相信每个人给的笑容都是真心的，希望身边的人都是真正的喜欢自己。即使别人小小的意见，也会另他们难过好久，他们真的真的很介意，介意自己不被人喜欢。因为，他们总是为别人想的很多，对别人总是比对自己好；把能对喜欢的人好当做幸福，喜欢别人比喜欢自己多。



他们总是那样，前一秒还伤心的流着泪，后一秒出现在朋友面前的时候，已经满脸溢着灿烂的笑容。有人说他们是向日葵，是的，他们在意的人就像是太阳，在面对太阳的时候永远是明艳的花瓣，而太阳照不到的背面，那悲伤藏得那么好，不愿被看见。



他们向往放纵自由的生活，却必须为了谁很努力的朝另外的一个方向活着，很累很累，却仍是心甘情愿。离自己的梦境越来越来远，不得不面对从未想过的争夺和复杂，恐慌、不知所措。只有面对最信赖的人时，才会卸下盔甲，委屈的流下眼泪。因为在他们心里，笑就是开心，哭就是难过，接近就是喜欢，远离就是讨厌。但其实不是，他们明白了，心好伤，眼泪就没忍住。哭过之后，笑笑得擦干眼泪，说，没关系，我可以做的很好的。



他们好像无所不能，好像总是不会有烦恼，好像什么问题都能轻而易举的解决，总是喜欢喜欢出现在流泪的人面前，笑嘻嘻的逗着笑。而面对自己的问题，他们却茫然无措，面对自己的悲伤，他们只会躲在人们看不见的角落里慢慢由伤口越裂越大。



他们的想法非常简单，说出来的就是心里所想的，肚子里不会拐七道八道的小弯，无心的话可能会引起别人的误解。所以，请别记恨他们，他们从不愿伤害谁，小小的错误就能让他们懊悔很久。



他们其实非常单纯，甚至你曾经给了他一个微笑他也会一辈子记得你的好，因此他们的世界观其实也很简单，他们很容易受蛊惑，请不要轻易的伤害他们的感情，因为一旦伤害了，那就将永远弥补不回来！如果你身边有这种人请你给予他（她）那怕是凤毛麟角的那点关怀，让他（她）知道这个世界没有抛弃他们。

Time

Time,
Is something everyone hopes it will always be enough.
However,
When people grew,
They will discover that time will always not enough for them.

Once you grew older,
there will always be something you will have to take responsible to.
You will have to do it no matter what happened or how you not willing to do it.

Time,
You will have to rearrange your schedule  or time.
If you plan it well,
You will have time for your family, friends and your girlfriend or boyfriend, your study.


However,
If you can't manage it well.
You will find out no matter how hard you try,
you can't make it.


Time,
I always hope you can have sometime for me.
Spend it with me.

Even if it's only 5 seconds.
I will feel that it's more than enough.

Recently~~~

Sorry for not updating my blog.
Recently I was unable to connect to the internet due to some problem of the network or someone's work.
Just have my 1stmathematic's quiz yesterday.
Not bad overall. (I think)

Nothing special happened recently.
Living the days as the same,
Went for class, have your meal and spend time with your friends.

Everyone is doing great I think.
Gonna decide whether wanna continue the rental contract with Danish House Company or not.
As I do not know where to move to.

Okay, just to update my blog.
Bye guys, take care.

Something I would like to say but I can't speak it out. So...I still can't say it out.

It's been so long,

Whenever I against it or disagree it and wanna tell her.

I can't say it and I don't know what to say.

I want to tell her what I'm thinking but I couldn't.

Honestly, there are something I don't want her to do.

But it always happen.

Even now I also don't know what the hell am I talking about.

Is this communication problem?

I don't want to make her upset or sad,

But I really dislike it.

I wanna know do she understand my worries,

I wanna tell her everything but I can't.

Felt very useless toward myself.

Wanna do something great but in return always get the result that out of my estimation.

I want her happy,

Maybe this is the reason I can't say it to her.

Or it's just I was afraid.

What the hell am I talking bout?

Have no idea!

Talking nonsense here...

Ignore it if you think this is an idiot post. (Even myself also think that this post is stupid.)

Am I stupid or idiot?

*SIGH*